Fear You Don’t Own Me

Do you ever catch yourself wondering about what life will be like a few years from now? When your babies are teenagers? When they’re all grown up and have families of their own? Honestly, I don’t tend to think about these things much. I’ve always been a “live in the moment” kind of person. I don’t think too much about the past or the future. I focus on the here and now. One reason for this could be because as a mom of two boys under two...I don’t get much time to just think.

The other night, after watching too many Grey’s Anatomy episodes in a row as the boys napped, I found myself distraught thinking about what life will be like as my boys grow up. How long will my husband and I have with them? What will the world be like for them as they go out on their own? What types of challenges will we face? What if one of us passes away? I quickly realized I was waisting the little time I actually had to sleep worrying. That’s not how I want to spend my time...worrying. That’s the devil in my head! I instantly thought of the song my friend and I would get stuck in our head at work, “shut the door...keep out the devil.” So instead I laid there going through the great memories we have had together so far as a family and praying that there will be time for many more memories in the future. It’s hard to accept that God has a plan and I don’t always know what will come next. However, having Faith in His plan is a lot less painful then worrying about the things I can’t control.

How do you deal with worries? I like to listen to Francesca Battistelli’s “The Breakup Song” and sing it out loud. If you haven’t heard that song, you should look it up! I also tend to text my friend who I have grown up with and has young babies like me. We express our fears, worries and trials to each other and honestly it feels great to know you’re not alone in the feelings you are having. She’s...my person (yes, another Grey’s Anatomy reference)! Whatever you do...pray, sing, work out, contact your person or all of the above, I hope you can find peace in the unknown and put your faith in a God who loves and protects. Don’t worry...be happy!